Wow. I definately haven't updated in ages. So, let's see. I'm back in North Carolina to finish my Senior year of high school. I'm a Beta Club Officer [public relations] and a Key Club Officer [ Activities Director]. I'm doing really well in school. I just took my SAT last saturday and I'm praying for awesome results. That's where all of my time has gone. I'm almost 100% sure that I'll be moving to TN in June and going to Lee University [with jenni and allison and laura!] :) umm... prayer request concerning college: I found out that on my FAFSA form, i have to put down my stepdad's income, even though I don't receive any of it. I just so happen to live under his roof. He will not be helping me pay for college. my dad will not be helping with anything either. I haven't heard from him in months. anywho, my stepdad's income is incredibly rediculously high [and i mean like HUGE]... which means ill get no fianancial aid. i do have a job, which i absolutely love! I'm working at Our Savior Lutheran Church, in the daycare. I'm trying to save enough to get a car before college but i just have so many expenses at home. I've held down a job, despite my staph infection and all of my medical junk, since the day I turned 16, and I have nothing to show for it. I definately don't go out and waste all of my money. So bottom line [prayer requests]: I need a car. I need a miracle to happen with paying for college. I'll need a laptop sometime in the future? I need a graphing calculator [even for my classes now], I need help with paying for my SAT and ACT tests. I need help with graduation costs... and because none of my fianancial needs show on paper, I'll get no help.... scary huh? So I know in my head that God will provide, but sometimes it's hard to believe that fully in my heart.

Things at home are pretty bumpy but it was my decision to move back in, and therefore I have no right to complain.

So, I'm a busy girl. Being busy is one of satan's greatest strongholds....

This weekend- I will be traveling to Asheville to meet Miss Jenni!!! and we'll do breakfast or something. :)

and then the next weekend: I'm going to Frontline at Lee University! and then I'm traveling to Alabama to see my brother and his family, and also to go back to Healing Waters for the Praise Fest!!![i miss this church sooooooo much and cant wait to see everyone], and then i'm coming back through TN on monday... so if anyone wants to meet up for lunch or something just let me know!

for those of you who have called last night/today and said that you've felt an urge to pray for me, or a burden on my behalf... READ THIS:

be encouraged. God is doing a VERY mighty work. a lot of decisions are unfolding, plans are being revealed, and i'm being challenged to jump into God's plan in ways that are way over my head. tonight at a church that i had been to once before, God forced me out of my seat [through heavy heartbeats and a friend laying his hands on me during the service because he senced God telling me to move]. I went to the microphone to share a piece of my testimony to a group of people that i dont know, and three people approached me with changed lives. healing, revealing, and deep movement happened in these peoples' lives and i'm feeling very humbled. This had NOTHING to do with me. God is showing me how great He is and how worthless i am without Him. He's confronting me, looking me dead in the eyes, and setting me straight. He's showing me where I need to go and His will for my life. He got me out of my seat tonight and showed me that that was only a small taste of what I'm supposed to do for Him.  He's revealing a very tough path for this next year that will require a steady gaze on Him alone. i'm scared, but now this fear isn't of earthly circumstances. it's a reverent fear of my Creator and it's guiding me to new depths. this is real, and deep. but i'm standing on the One who hold the foundations for this world. i'm fired up and floored! thank you so much for your prayers. i love you all.

ARRRRRRRRRRRRRGG!

Midnight showing of Pirates of the Caribbean II

-Jackie Sparrow

RRRRRRRRGGGG *hook finger*

Tonight my niece and I are dressing up like pirates and going to the midnight showing of Pirates of the Carribbean II !!!

shiver me timbers. or something like that.

wow.

Hello everyone  

Your long, lost sister has returned to the world of comments and blog entries!

Update: I'm moving Saturday to Birmingham, Alabama. Mom is pretty sick, and I pray she goes to a doctor soon. I'm really struggling with missing everyone, and worrying [about a car, where I'm going to live when I return, etc.]]

Now on to the INCREDIBLE things that have happened this week!!

-Ben Lowman, Lindsay, Cristy and I went to the Cup of Life on Friday night. Ben and I stood in the rain and talked about the city. He said, "this is a good reflaction of my life. As I look at the stoplights, the people who are stopped just want to go, and the people who are going don't want to stop. And I just try to not get caught up in the world. A lot of people probably haven't ever stood back and watched it rain in the city." That statement served as a reality check for myself. In a lot of different ways.

-My friend Lindsay and I played//prayed in a warm summer down-pouring rain in an empty parking lot at 10:00 at night for atleast an hour. Absolutely drenched in joy.

-I got to talk to a lot of people that I hadn't spoken to in a very long time and mend relationships and get a lot of closure.

-Lots of time with my very closest friends [[lunch, wal-mart, and mall runs]]

-My friends threw a surprise going-away party for me yesterday, complete with all my friends, food, my favorite place to go during the summer [a local park], a beautiful frame from Matt with all our pictures, a poem on a plaque that made me cry, presents from the Berkowitz boys, cards, and a photo album that is currently sitting beside me. A Xanga entry can not possibly allow me to show how thankful and blessed I am. I love every single one of you more than you know, and each of you have been such a positive influence on my life. You guys have carried me when circumstances left me on my face. You're encouragers, warriors, angels, and the best friends I could ever ask for.[[Carol Ann, Keesha, Matt, Lindsay,  Chris, Derek, Sarah, Marie, Chelsea, Jenica, Zach, Ben, Cristy, Muamong, Gena, Elizabeth, Amanda]] Thank you all so much for coming.  

Tonight I get to go to my church for the last time before I leave. Tomorrow is mine and Marie's day, and Friday we're going to Carowinds! This week has been filled with happy tears, sad tears, incredible joys, and painful lows. My emotions are strung from the highest mountain top to the deepest cave. God knew this week would be hard on me. He called in angels to lift my face toward the sonshine and rain. The Lord gives and takes away... still I will say, "Blessed be The Name."

 17 days until camp!